It's not the chase, it's the mess that feel's so right.

So. I'm staying with the family until christmas, 
then I'm joining A in my new home town...
I start my traineeship tomorrow, and mum wen't in to hospital today.
Everything keeps changing. I can hardly keep up.
PLUS I REALLY NEED A SET OF SCALES!!!

Starting Weight: (aprox) 60kg
Current Weight: (aprox) 60kg
Goal Weight: 50kg/110lbs
To go: (aprox) 10kg/22lbs

Yesterday: Day One.

Breakfast - nothing
Lunch - nothing
Dinner - chicken and vegetable stir fry.
Snacks - 2x juice

Cleaning - 3 hours

Today: Day Two.

Breakfast -2x mulberries
Lunch - nothing
Dinner - nothing
Snacks - juice, 2x black tea

Running - 30 minutes
Cleaning/packing - 7 hours
Arm exercises - 30 minutes

proof that she still loves me :)

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5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING

1. Grey skinny leg jeans i got for like $6.
2. A white singlet top... it got so friggin dirty somehow. sigh.
3. A grey jacket i borrowed from a friend to go clubbing.
4. Nundies. they're pink and grey and frilly :)
5. Does a belly bar count?

1. Two TV's. Both playing the same program.
2. Bofriend passed out at the end of the bed.
3. A thing of golf clubs haha. What are they called?
4. An old white and black motorbike half pulled to bits on the carpet... hah!
5. A kettle. haha. random.

5 THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW

1. Watching some bullshit show on telly.
2. Shooing the god dam flies.
3. Thinking about things that i should just let go of.
4. Filling out this dumb thing.
5. looking up some chick on myspace.

5 THINGS YOU ATE IN THE LAST 24 HOURS

1. Cookies and milk :)
2. Vegies (twice)
3. Egg sandwhich.
4. Vegemite sandwhich.
5. Green apple ticktacks.

5 THINGS YOU DID SO FAR TODAY

1. OMG. Went to a pet shop and played with puppies and a cocky and snakes and frogs!!!
2. Counted guppie babies over and over and over. i think there was 10...
3. Went 4WDing all over gero... FREAKED OUT over FUCKED UP amount of ants.
4. Made more new friends :) one of them wore a scarf around his neck.
5. Put two cats inside a wedding dress trying to make them tear it up. haha.

5 THINGS YOU CAN HEAR RIGHT NOW

1. Some insurance add with some fat red head guy.
2. Aaron sleeping... now next to me. lol.
3. Sweet fuck all.
4. The sound my computer makes when it's running...
5. typing when i have something to add?

5 COLORS YOU CAN SEE

1. Well this isn't a colour... but what a fucked up question!
2. Black. it's night time, and the lights turned off.
3. Red. Red wine on all saints. Gergh.
4. White screen on my laptop.
5. Blue pillow under Aaron's head :) 

5 THOUGHTS IN YOUR HEAD

1. My neck hurts from straining to make out the letters on the keyboard.
2. Is Aaron going to leave me?
3. Should I move to geraldton?
4. Why did I eat so much today? I was going so well.
5. Oh oh, and I'm hell looking forward to halloween party this weekend :) i need a costume!
   

Well it's full speed baby, in the wrong direction.

Recently, I've been having these moments... where out of nowhere,
I want to cry. And it hurts not too. It physically hurts.
But I feel as if I won't be able to stop once I start.

I have no idea what I weigh. I've lost weight though.
For once I am sure of that.

these are hard times for dreamers;